It's totally weird saying that.
In less than two weeks, the year 2011 will be halfway over.
Where the heck did time go? I feel like for me, personally, I haven't taken every moment and used it for good things that will benefit me. I've been on the computer a lot, whether it's researching, watching YouTube, blogging, FACEBOOKING (also known as the death of me), emailing...whatever.
So three days ago I got up and said, "Enough" and, to David's surprise, got in my car and went to the gym. And I've been going back since. It's only been three days, but it's the step that makes the difference and the intention behind it. I don't want to just be thinner & look better, I want to feel better. I'm tired of being winded as I go up the stairs, and it seems these past few months I have just been exhausted. And to top it all off, I've definitely had depression.
It became too much to handle. I've heard exercising regularly improves depression, and exhaustion, and I use to regularly workout before I got married. Whenever I look back at photos I catch myself saying, "I would do anything to feel that happy again."
Well, this is that something. At least I hope it will improve my life and make me a more positive person with energy and passion for life.
Though it isn't here yet, I wanted to give an "update" midway through 2011 so I can keep myself accountable for my resolutions.
1. More blogging (once or twice a week) Realized that may quite possibly be too much.
2. More photoshoots & advance my skills in photography I have a few booked in the next week
3. Play piano daily Check.
4. Write more songs on piano Making progress.
5. Attend more auditions for musical theater (that is my life's dream after all) Check.
6. Start college FINALLY Don't know if I feel the same way about college. Atleast not at this point in my life. I'd be happy to explain it to anybody who asks, I just feel that college is something you should completely want for your life, and right now I have other goals. But I'm 21, my feelings are constantly changing so check back on that one!
7. Work out more often, eat healthier than I have been the last few months. I'd like to lose 30 pounds in 2011. Very possible! Finally getting there...
8. Pursue a deeper relationship with Jesus. He has all the answers I need to life I need way more of this.
9. Love people more I need way more of this, too.
10. Become more of a confident person and to feel more comfortable in my own skin and walk in that on a daily basis Sigh. Don't have this, but I believe the more I pursue Jesus with my life, the more I will get to this point.
It's easy to look at that list and realize that I haven't done some of those things in six months, and then give up. But that's what I do every year and I want this year to be different. I want to prove to myself I can do absolutely anything with hard work, determination, and prayer. I know I can do this.
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Hey Gil, I'm so proud of you! I believe you can do anything you set your mind to. And it's true, exercise does help with depression. When you got married and moved, I was about to get really depressed, so I started running. That's when I trained for my marathon. It was the most physically challenging thing I've ever done, but it gave me sense of accomplishment, purpose, and a knowing that I'm capable of doing anything! And as just a bonus, it makes you feel happier, prettier and healthier. And it makes you sleep great at night!
ReplyDeleteShaylee, you are so amazing. You're able to do so many things, and do them so well. You're talented, bright, caring, funny, and loving. I know it's easy for me to say but people who barely know you say it too. You expect so much from yourself, and probably most really successful people do. But sometimes it is so hard to live up to our own expectations.
ReplyDeleteI was listening to Pastor Todd (Radiant) on his podcasts last night and he talked about how he went through such a terrible time of depression and despondency during his 20's. Maybe it would be good for you to give a listen, it may help you.
Meanwhile, until you find your way, keep Jesus first, do everything with love, and always keep exercising. It is just plain good for you.
I love you very much, beautiful girl.